Convocation

My convocation is finally over! It was a rather boring ceremony and lots of waiting. I think i was quite high that day because i have officially graduated and like taking photos with my friends (despite i think my face was so oily that light literally reflects off my face). The crowd was a killer as usual, but photos from the commencement, courtesy of Eric who brought his camera.

Thanks to all my friends who came, Eric, Zhoujing and Sini. And to Ailian and Cailing who congrats me for my commencement hah.

Me and Sini.

Me and Zhoujing.

Me and Eric.

I have not uploaded the photos i took with my exchange friends, so probably will post them in a later post. Also went to school to some graduation photos with my friend yesterday, with his friend as our photographer. Hopefully i will get some decent photos because apparently i was told that when i smile, i look rather aunty! */rolleyes*

Anyway hopefully this will be my last week of work at my dad's place, a week break followed by the start of my contract teaching. Up till now i have not receive my school posting yet, probably too many teachers for MOE to post. I read in the newspaper today that MOE has already recruited pass their quota for teachers for 2009 last month, which kind of true that during recession a lot of people really apply for teaching. But how many of this numbers actually stay on after the recession is a question. I do hope that after my contract teaching i would actually like teaching and would stay on.

Tomorrow is my graduation - July 10th

After 4 years of mostly unhappy time in NUS, i finally managed to graduate with a second lower honors in Bachelor of Electrical Engineering. There are a lot of reasons on why i was mostly unhappy during this period of time which i may or may not have blog about previously, but i am just glad it is finally over. The months and years ahead may or may not be smooth, but i know that at least it is the path that i wish to walk in. Whether i walk away or continue down this path, at least i have tried and have the answers to my doubts.

Some says that the end is the start of new beginnings and i kind of agree. Because to me, apparently once each phase of my life ends, the amount of ties brought forward seems to be really limited. Even though the experiences follow me and guide me in my further endeavors, the amount of lost friendship often made me ponder on my actions and behaviors.

At this crossroad of my life, i seek to understand my life thus far. If anything i need to know, is that despite how i am unhappy with certain aspects of my life, i probably have more blessings than the average person and i do know that i need to cherish these blessings. As i hope for clearer sky and a safe harbour in my working life, i am thankful for what i have been through and for the people around me. Viva la vida!

K Ktv!

After a rather spontaneous ktv session last Friday after a lower secondary class gathering at Safra Jurong, i found that i really like to sing this song by Yogo Lin. It really feels like shouting all the way hah.



On a side note, i am quite pissed today. Not at anyone or anything, but it is like how i got caught in the rain. It just happens, and you can't really blame anyone for it, not even myself.

Natural Instinct or just Paranoid

Have you ever felt that all your instincts are telling you that you have probably been taken for a ride, but you are just enjoying the ride so much that you can't seem to stop unless the car crashes, with you probably half dead or something.

Or is it just yourself being paranoid over seemly small details which probably give and serve no purpose.

Then again, typically natural instinct occurs when survival is in question, so maybe gut feelings might be more appropriate to describe such feeling.

So... i suspect that my weekly diet of KFC is causing me to gain weight, or it might be my physical training that is causing me to gain weight because of new muscles.

Delusional or not, 3 more weeks to end of my remedial training, but not like it actually matters anymore since i probably will have nothing interesting going on because of swine flu and some other things.

On a side note, below is a song by Lily Allen call Fuck You. I find the title and the rationale behind the song rather interesting. If this song is ever play in Singapore, the title would probably be *tu* You.



Looking forward to try to take a few days off to relax next week.

IPPT

Sian, today took my ippt and fail my 2.4km run by 5s, freaking 5 seconds! Almost want to die liao after running. Sigh... better efforts next time :/

My Immortal

This song bring back memories, lovely and sorrowful memories alike.

Things that slipped pass me which i did not grab hold on, but luckily there are still great starts.

Random thoughts

Things change and people change.

Is it because of change in expectations or merely because we forget about how things used to be. I always thought that perceptions are what determine how we think, but apparently expectations are what determine our perceptions.

I don't want to be the waiting one, but being the active one cause the change in expectations, only to realize that something is missing, is gone.

The component that is gone is the priceless and rare touch of friendship.

Maybe it is time to give my own advice to myself.